Ashley sucks.

• I thought it would be a little like last time I was here, but things have changed so much that all of the little things that I loved about being here in TX are no longer there.
• I thought that while I was here I would be happy and healthy and when that happens I automatically start looking better, I have time to do my hair and I actually do it, I bathe regularly, I wear makeup, and my style (clothing) even gets better. I just feel great. This has NOT happened. Because of the next one.
• I thought that it would be nice getting paid for babysitting, but I figured that I would be getting paid at least $7 an hour since I’m watching two boys, which is almost $300 a week. But what they offered me was $200 a week and $7 an hour for any overtime that I do. So I’m working 40 hours a week, (which at almost every job out there means you get benefits, insurance, a pay raise, that kind of thing) and I’m getting paid over $2 less than minimum wage.
• The fact that I’m working 40 hours and only 4 days a week means that for those 4 days all I’m doing is babysitting (10 hours a day), eating, and sleeping, most of the time I don’t have time to shower.
• Then on my days off I don’t want to shower because I’d rather be sleeping and sitting under my blanket or watching a tv show that I missed while I was working, or just generally enjoying the silence, and spending some time with my own thoughts.
• Last time I was here I was staying with my sister Amber, who is generous and kind like I like to think I am. I think we are kind of similar. We balance each other out because we take turns doing nice things for each other. Also I had my own room. Now, I am staying with my sister Sarah, who does not appreciate when nice things are done for her, and never does something nice for anyone without expecting something in return. She’s not that bad but then when you pair that with her boyfriend, who is also slightly annoying, it’s two slightly annoying people that aren’t that bad unless you have to deal with both at the same time. Then add the fact that the most annoying of her bf’s slightly annoyingness is that he listens to the same effing songs EVERY DAY. And they are songs that I hate.
• Also last time I was here, I came with a friend of ours, Britty, and she was new to Texas and everything too, and she could drive and had a car, so we would do stuff together and keep each other company. We also had a couch and tv and cable we could use when we were bored.
• And lastly, I miss everyone in MI soooo much. And I think my parents really do need me there. I don’t think really me in particular, just any child. I realized my parents have never been married without children and they don’t know how to handle it, and the way they’ve found is not a good one at all and it’s kind of hurting their relationship, and I’m worried. I asked my dad if he thinks it will be better when I get home and he said yes, so now I’m reeally glad I’m going home.

Aaaaaand, those are the reasons.